Seeking solace

Howth; performing ablution
//Seeking solace.

Pada suatu malam dari malam-malam...

Muhammad Husayyan - Fi Lailatil Minal Layali



from http://www.enshad.net/Mawlay

Terjemahan lirik? Tunggu selepas exam.

Get the mp3 at
http://s44.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1SMVLAU3DHUAX3HB741NUGXHPF

Update:
Layali - malam-malam, bukannya malam-malamku. Kesilapan tatabahasa arab... dah banyak lupa!

Satu cabaran bagi yang muda...

Sample this - from uk-muslims@yahoogroups.com :

In The Name of Allaah, The most Beneficent,The most Merciful & In Him We
Trust & It Is He Who Protects Us

An Interview with Umm Saalih,A Grandmother Who Completed Memorizing the Qur'aan at Eighty-Two Years Old

As Read by Dr. Saleh as Saleh
Al-Hamdulillaah (All-Praise is due to Allah), the One Who said (what means):
"And in truth We have made the Qur'aan easy to remember; but is there any
that remembers?" Surah 54: 32

Many all over the world memorize the Qur'aan, and it is not strange to see
the youth memorizing the Noble Qur'aan and an early age. Al-Hamdulillaah,
the One who made the Qur'aan easy for remembrance, had made it easy for Umm
Saalih age 82. In an interview with Umm Saalih,she was asked the following
questions:

Q1: "What was the reason that drove you to memorize the Qur'aan after so many years?"
She said, "I always hoped to memorize the Qur'aan from the time I was young.
My father always used to invoke Allaah for me to become one of the
memorizers of the Qur'aan, like himself and like the elder brothers of my
family who memorized it. So I memorized in the beginning about three parts
and then after I completed the age of thirteen, I got married and became
busy with the household and the children. After I had seven children, my
husband died. They (the children) were all young so I took the time to raise
them and educate them, and then after they grew up and got married, I had
more time for myself. Therefore, the first thing I directed myself to focus
upon was the Qur'aan.

Q2: "Tell us about your journey with the Noble Qur'aan."

She said, "My younger daughter was going to high school and she was the
closest of my children to me and the most beloved, because she stayed with
me after her older sisters got married and got busy with their lives, and
because she was a quiet girl,upright, loving, and good. In addition, she was
interested in learning the Noble Qur'aan, and her teachers encouraged her.

Furthermore, she was very enthusiastic and always told me of many women who
were driven by this great motivation to memorize the ur'aan, and this is
where I started."

Q3: "Tell me about your way of memorization."

She said, "We assigned ten verses (meaning her and her daughter who was
going to high school). So each day after Asr, we used to sit together. She
reads and I repeat after her three times. Then she explains the meaning to
me, and after a while, she repeats that three times. On the next morning,
she repeats them to me before she goes to school.

She recorded also the recitations of Ash Shaykh al Husary, Rahimuhullaah,
repeating each verse three times and thus I continued to listen most of the
time. Therefore, the next day we would go to the next ten verses if my
memorization was good.Otherwise, we would postpone taking additional verses
until the day after. Moreover, we assigned the day of Friday to review the
memorizations of the entire week. And this was the journey from the
beginning."

Then she said, "Over four years and a half, I memorized twelve juz"
according to the way I described to you. Then this young daughter got
married. When her husband knew of our task concerning the memorization, he
rented a house close to me, close to my house, so that he could allow the
continuation of the memorization. In addition, he, May Allah reward him used
to encourage us and sometimes sit with us listening, explaining and
teaching.

Then after three years of her marriage, my daughter got busy with the
children and the household and our schedule was interrupted, but that did
not make her give up. To the contrary, she sensed that my eagerness for the
memorization was still established so she looked for a special good teacher
to continue the journey under her supervision. So, I completed the
memorization by the success of Allaah and my daughter is still working to
finish the memorization of the Glorious Qur'aan. She has a little left, In
Shaa Allaah Ta'aala.

Q4: "This motivation of yours, did it have an effect on other women around you?"
She said, "It really had a good strong effect. My daughters and
stepdaughters were all encouraged and worked on learning and teaching the
Qur'aan to their children and learning it themselves.

Q5: "After finishing the Noble Qur'aan, don't you think about working on memorizing hadith?"
She said, "Now I have memorized ninety hadith and In Shaa Allaah I will
continue the journey. I depend,in my memorization, upon the tapes and upon
the Qur'aan radio station. At the end of each week, my daughter comes and
checks for me the memorization of three hadith, and I am trying now to
memorize more.

Q6: "Over this period of memorization of the Qur'aan, did your life change?
Was it affected in one way or another?"

She said, "Yes, I went through a major change and I tried always, all praise
is due to Allaah, to obey Allaah before I started the memorization. However,
after I started the task of memorization, I began to feel a self-comfort, a
great self-comfort and all worries began to move away from me. I even
reached the stage of freeing myself from all these excessive worries
concerning fearing for the children and their affairs, and my morale was
boosted.

I had a noble objective to work for and this is a great Ni'mah (Favor) from
Allaah . upon me, since we know that some women, when they get old and they
do not have a husband, and their children got married, may be destroyed by
the empty time, thoughts, worries, and so forth. But, AlHamdulillaah, I
didn't go through this and I made myself busy with a great task and a great
objective.

Q7: "Didn't you think at one point, to join one of the circles focusing on teaching the Noble Qur'aan?"

The answer was, "Yes, some of the women suggested this to me, but I am a
woman who got used to staying at home, and I don't like to go out everyday,
and Al Hamdulillaah, my daughter sufficed me from all difficulty and I was
so happy while I was learning from her. My daughter had set an example in
goodness and righteousness which we rarely find in our days.

She started this task and journey with me while she was an adolescent and
this is a critical age many people complain of. She used to pressure herself
so that she could have spare time to teach me, and she used to teach me with
kindness and wisdom. Her husband was a good help to her and he exerted a lot
of effort. I ask Allaah . to give them success and to bring their children
up on uprightness."

Q8: "What do you say to a woman of your age who wishes to learn and memorize
the Qur'aan yet she is worried about it and feeling unable to?"

She said, "I say to her there their shall be no despair with the firm,
sincere and truthful determination. Begin with sincerity, firm determination
and dependence on Allaah at each time. And remember that at this age you
should have the time for yourself. However, do not use your time to only go
out or to sleep and so forth. Rather, busy yourself with righteous work.

Q9: "Now what would you say to a woman who is still young? What would you advise her?"
She, may Allaah preserve her, said: "Preserve Allaah and He will preserve
you. Make use of the favor of Allaah bestowed upon you from health and ways
and means of comfort. Use that to memorize the Book of Allaah. This is the
light which enlivens your heart, your life and your grave after you die.

And if you have a mother then exert the effort to teach her, and there is no
better favor upon a mother than one of her righteous children aiding her to
be close to Allaah.

"Hiya maytatun waahidah, fal takun fee sabeelillah"

Semangat nih! Antara nak dengan tak nak...

Deen Intensive

I was waiting for no reason - actually to recall back what I am supposed to buy before I'm off home, when Omar waved his hands from afar, seeking for a conversation. I just stood there, and pondered - was there anything that I promised him, but has been forgotten?

"...Salaamualaykum!"
"Alaikumussalam.... shaikh barak? Aina anta wein?"
"Bikhair... wa anta?"
"Bikhair aidan faqad..."
"So what brings you here?"
"Oh I just want to ask you, what are going to do for your summer?"
"Errmmm.... I'm going back, and there gonna be many things to do! (laughed), you know, my cousins relatives and all, juniors, a bit of studying I guess (laughed again)"
"I see. Hmmm... just to have a check with you. Ermm I'm still thinking about doing a research over here mmm... its gonna be good, but 8 weeks... huh... I don't know (shrugged)"
"8 weeks? Wow... you are sure a really busy lad"
"I am just worried I can't do... errr... read, erm... you know the kitab and all that..."
"Masya Allah brother, you mean thafaqquh or something like that?"
"Yeah yeah... and 'Abadi... you should do that as well..."
"Insya Allah... hmmm..."

Thafaqquh?
What say you?

Flashback - 2 years back, when I was meeting with my advisor, Pak Ibrahim up in the KLCCC, advised the same thing. Same goes with Kak Rashidah Bahaman. I wonder how are they right now.

News From UK

Hmmm... WMF is here again... Is he becoming a Dubliner? Now we're open for detectives out to investigate.

Pertaining this photo, the student elections is on going everywhere in UK. But I haven't updated myself about it much anyway. Maybe in some universities its already over like in Nottingham and Manchester.

Actually there was an uproar in recent student elections in UK, thanks to recount that lead to controversy about the transparency of the election commission. I can't help much if I am being judgmental (or prejudice, perhaps) since I am glued to my chair - but by all means, there must be something that isn't right taking place.

Anyhow, the future is bright for us.

"There will be a time, that even if we nominate a duck as a rep, that duck will win"

Oh yes, here is a piece of advice I got from YM:

No one attains the reality of zuhud (renunciation) until there are 3 characteristics in him:

- work without attachment
- speech without personal motives
- honor without seeking position

Yahya bin Muadh

Waallahu'alam.

A Photo For Those Afar

Hmmm... he is returning back to Malaysia tomorrow, after a short stay in Dublin, Cork, Galway. Period.

Mak, Ayu, Aida, Arif, Ammar, Azam & Anas - perhaps this photo could alleviate much of your blues back home. 1 and half year is not too long, isn't it?


//Trio at Trinity College - From left: Izzuan, Yours truly, Ayah.

Upcomings:
IMAM Eire AGM
PPIMI Tamrin Nuqaba'
KUI All-Ireland Soccer Tournament
PPIM Cork Pre-Baitulmuslim (Marriage) Course

Oh yes, exam is merely one month away. So I won't update this blog much. Go to other sites & read something more beneficial, would you?

MAB's Reflection Latest Issue (March 05) is out. Download it here.

On Being Just Another Doctor

That's the phrase that I put it across my vision most of the time. And I deeply hope I could live with it.

Hmmm... I just do not want to be another plain doctor. I want to be more than that. But I have to realistic & idealistic at the same time - by knowing who you are and why you are here.

Actually if you do some homework you can easily conclude that all of us COULD do more. Or shall rephrase it to SHOULD to make it clear.

What's the point of being here, wasting up taxpayers' money and end up being just another doctor?

Such a waste! Such a waste! Such a waste!

Just recall what Allah has reminded us in Surah Al Asr, Surah At Tin. And Surah As Sajdah. And many more. Please.

I pray that all of us will not become one.

Waallahu'alam.

Spring Break 2005

Series of events yang mengisi waktu di musim bunga kali ini.

Cuti-cuti Musim Bunga (hari 1)
-Forum Fitnah Akhir Zaman & Berita Dari Akhirat
-Pasar Siang - roti john, kek batik, scones (now tolerable), kasuwi, popia, nasi lemak, seri muka, & the list goes on.
-Dr Latiff's 'buah tangan'

UiTM Medical Faculty briefing
-Seems that the prospect of working in UiTM is quite bright thanks to recent seal of an agreement between UiTM and my sponsor. Dr Khalid Yusoff clearly explained what to do and to be done, and managed to spark some argument - to stay or not to stay. But the final verdict is just the plain clear - you have to go back & serve Malaysia no matter what the excuses are.

Dinner with PSA
-Turned out to be 3-hour-odd motivational lecture at dining table. Really woke me up somehow. Way much better than listening to disappointing same old stuff during the briefing weeks back.

Cuti-cuti Musim Bunga (hari 2)
-Kuiz Muslim Ceria
-Bengkel Memasak Roti, Sastera, serta Al-Quran & Tajwid. Lepas nih aku boleh masak roti lah. Dah reti nak ayak macam mana.
-Teater 'Mencari Jalan Pulang'

End The Occupation Demostration for Iraq & Palestine (Irish Anti War Movement)
-500-750 were there (RTE). Actually there were more - at least 3000. Can't beat those Londoners - 2 million!
-We proudly paraded with Chechens placards on air. Glad that the masses started to know that there's whole lot of Chechens being silently put to death.

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FOSIS Ireland - End The Occupation Conference
-New insights about Takbai, Chechnya & Kashmir. I could even see tears trickling down during when Takbai footage was shown. All in all, it was marvellous! Congrats & jazakallah to those who were involved, directly or indirectly. It is hoped that we reached the objective - educate, motivate & activate.
-The speakers were excellent!
-The most important : the workshop. Masya Allah those guys (Richard Boyd Barrett, Imam Achmad Cassiem, Massoud Shadjareh, Danny Morrison) were moving!
-Now let's boycott Israel with our utmost! Even Dr Ilan Pappe himself plus Rabbi Weiss blatantly support all these boycotts, let alone our beloved Muslim scholars...

Let's get the boycott up!

Irish Anti War
Innovative Minds - Boycott Israel Campaign
Boycott Leaflets

Hmmm... kuning daffodil mula mewarnai. Bisa ke Bray hari ini...

Account of London & Manchester visit

London
Brand Essence & Shared Values. Itu lah things to bring home from briefing di London. Kali ini di Porchester Hall. Agak posh seperti namanya. Makan pun sedap. Orang Nahar yang hidangkan...

"Laaaa... delay lagi... Ryan Air ni satu la..."
"Ha ha... tahun lepas pun macam nih..."

Kami tiba lambat - Ryan Air ada delay. To my amazement, it was actually the same flight as last year's. A bit disappointed, but nak buat macam mana, dah ditakdirkan Allah lambat. Ada baiknya, manalah tahu, kalau terbang juga, terhempas pula. Lain ceritanya nanti sebab penulis sudah tiada lagi.

Alhamdulillah tiba juga kami akhirnya di Porchester Hall. Buat grand entrance! - masuk lambat, duduk row paling depan sekali. Elok sangat lah tu.

Hmmm... it is good to see that our sponsor is performing really well (meaning that they're expecting the same from us!). Currently they're embarking the business in Egypt and Sudan. The smell of the money (oil to be exact) is so strong to the extent that if we invest one, we will get ten in return! Isn't that great?

Then, semasa makan tengahhari, I got to meet seniors namely Nabil, Haidar, Faidz, Nasri, and yes, newbies too. Amin from Cork dapat jumpa juga. Hmmm... it seems that loads of newbies tahun ini. Meriah. The more the merrier. Apa impaknya pada mereka? Menurut Abang Hamizan - "Mereka nanti tak kenal seniors, orang tua as they duduk sama-sama...".

Well, maybe it is just a myth. Really? Don't ask for the answer, please.

London II
Alhamdulillah Munzir is still alive, and currently reading Civil Engineering at Imperial College. Now I can say that I have a dedicated hostel in London. Phew! travelling around London has never been so easy! Jazakallahukhairan!

Semasa perjalanan ke Chinatown, terpisah dengan Ghani & Nabil semasa bersesak-sesak di dalam Tube. Satu hal sungguh. Kesal juga sebab tak switch on roaming, sebab terpisah terus. Akhirnya, aku terus ke Edgeware Road, dapatlah bertemu seorang sahabat - Munzir.

Alih-alih, dapatlah jumpa balik di Picadilly Station.

Di London, Edgeware Road cukup dikenal ramai. Seperti kembar tua Curry Mile di Manchester, sepanjang jalan tersusun kedai-kedai Pak Arab serta Pakistan/India. Boleh kata seiras Masjid India.

Kedatangan imigran dari Arab, dan Asia Selatan (Pakistan, India, Bangladesh, Sri Lanka) ke UK adalah seawal kurun ke 19 atas hubungan perdagangan. Merekalah yang menjadi asas bagi tersebarnya Islam di UK secara menyeluruh. Ya, merekalah daie, tukang kedai, dan bermacam lagi. Dari sinilah terbinanya masjid-masjid, yang cukup berjasa kepada kita.

Imigran dari Malaysia turut serta menjadikan UK lebih 'rancak', walaupun dengan stail yang berbeza. Mereka datang seawal 60an secara gerombolan. Majoritinya adalah pelajar - mereka hanya di sini untuk 3-4 tahun sahaja.rrrrrrrrrr

Kali ini, tak sempat nak ke muzium atau tempat-tempat menarik di London. Imperial War Museum, Madame Toussaoud, dan banyak lagi yang belum dilawati. Lain kali sajalah...

Hmmm... Chester Beatty di sini pun masih belum dijejaki lagi.

Manchester
Perjalanan 9 jam dari Dublin ke sini dirasakan singkat... sebab selalu tertidur sepanjang perjalanan. Di dalam feri, masa diluangkan dengan membaca Sekuntum Kembang Di Sayap Jibril oleh SM Zakir. Mozo pula nyenyak diulit mimpi. Bermimpikan perjalanan Ibnu Battutah agaknya, yang mengembara sana-sini. Mungkin kami bakal menjejak langkahnya nanti. Asyik ralit menelaah cerpen, tidak pun sedar feri sudah pun berlabuh rupanya.

Alih-alih, sudah di Chorlton Street seawal 6.00 pagi rupanya. Naik teksi secara kumpulan dengan senior-senior Hmmm... kemudian ditumpangkan di Whitworth Park. Rasa guilty pula sebab pakai mouse tuan punya bilik...

IMAM Second Medical Symposium - Muslims & Medicine in a Globalised World. Itulah agenda kami kali ini. 2 hari lamanya. Hari ini dan esok.

Tiba di Manchester Royal Infirmary agak lewat, dek terlelap setelah bersarapan. Terus terdengar khabar ada rakan-rakan (Syafiq Ayman dan Ariff Fahmi) Dublin yang terlepas flight. Aiseh, sakit. Mereka tiba agak lambat sedikit. At least they made it in one piece.

The symposium went on. Then the DPM arrived and delivered an inspiring speech before he left. He sure have a tight schedule on his visit to UK. So many things to be done and yet so little time are given. Maybe.

Antara lecture yang cukup mendapat tempat di hati adalah mengenai Abul Qassim Az-Zahrawi - one of the greatest of all time (also known as Abulqasis) by Ibrahim Sheikh. He unfolded the life story of said Muslim surgeon and drew a picture of his achievements, or route to me follow on for that matter. Mabruk!

Hmmmm...

I was strucked by something yesterday.
I better change now before it is too late.

Oh yes, let's go to Islam Basics (http://www.islambasics.com), shall we?

Current recommended website:
Bahan Tarbiyyah
Islam Basics
Masud.co.uk
Alibris
Abebooks

...

About the IAW, there's an Arabic saying : "You cannot give what you do not have".

Hmmm... I heard the Terrorism vs Islamophobia talk got a great response. Too bad I couldn't be there.

Oh yes, somebody pushed the buzzer telling that an Islamophobe was around on Monday. Oh well, oh well...

Of Liver Disease & IAW 2005

Bila bercakap tentang IAW, rasa bersemangat, walaupun secara fizikalnya kurang sihat. Lemsip banyak juga ditelan sejak kebelakangan ini. Ishh.. boleh overdose nih haha. Liver disease seh, sebab liver menerima beban untuk metabolise ubat yang ditelan. Panadol overdose leads to liver failure... dan mati.

IAW. Islam Awareness Week. Minggu Kesedaran Islam (betul ke dalam BM?) Hmmm... nak sedarkan diri sendiri & orang tentang Islam. Biar kita banteras Islamophobia... walaupun dengan sumbangan kita yang sekelumit cuma.

Hmmm... Aku cukup hormat dan kagum semangat rakan-rakan yang tetap teguh, semoga Allah mengurniakan sebaik-baik ganjaran untuk mereka. Cukup hormat dan kagum. Wallahi!

Jadi aku menjemput lah rakan-rakan ke IAW @ Surgeons. War-warkan kepada semua... kalau tak dapat pergi, at least balik lah rumah dan buka balik buku-buku agama. Takpun surf internet. Banyak literature dan segala di sana. Tinggal antara nak dengan tak nak sahaja...

Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya iman itu bertambah dengan amal soleh, dan berkurang dengan maksiat. Banyak beramal makmurlah hati semakmur makmurnya. Bila bertambah maksiat, lain pula jadinya. Itulah Liver Disease yg sebenarnya. Kalau dah tahap Liver Cirrhosis, parah. Solat tinggal pun masih boleh selamba makan biskut.

Oh ya, Alhamdulillah nak datang juga ayah ke sini. Dapat tiket murah di travel fair yang berlangsung sekarang. Tahun lepas, ayah offer nak datang, tapi aku tolak bulat2. Membazir aku kata. Ishh ishhh. Selepas itu agak kesal, ya lah, dah lah cuti musim panas tak balik. Kali ini, aku tak dapat tolak lagi. Rindu sangat.

Tak sabar pula menanti detik yang mendebarkan ini. Lub dub. Lub dub...

Kadang-kadang terfikir juga, apakah persekolahan di asrama selama 5 tahun boleh 'melonggarkan' simpulan antara keluarga dan anaknya? Pelik juga psikologi manusia ini. Mari semak balik nota-nota psikologi ya?

Wallahu'alam.

The Real New Year / Perihal Hari Valentine

Selamat Tahun Baru...



Marilah baca artikel-artikel di Islam Online. Tambahkan sedikit ilmu pengetahuan. Muharram Safar Rabi'ul Awal Rabi'ul Thani Jumada Awal Jumada Ukhra Rejab Syaaban Ramadan Syawal Zulqaedah Zulhijjah...



Terima kasih penasyid sekalian (Yusuf Islam, Raihan, Hijjaz etc), kerana telah membantu kita mengingati bulan-bulan Islam. Hai, nak ingat pun kena menyanyi?



Hmmm maghrib sekejap lagi. New Year! Okay cau!



..



Valentine's Day pun semakin hampir. Apalah nak jadi? 2 tahun sudah, aku pernah menyaksikan sendiri gelagat pemuda-pemudi bersorakan dek Valentine's Day. Ketika itu, aku di KLCC menjemput rakan yang baru saja tiba dari KMYS lepas maghrib, dalam pukul 8 malam adalah kiranya.



Sewaktu perjalanan pulang, terkejut sungguh melihatkan ribuan anak muda bercanda di tepi kolam air pancur KLCC. Wah! Ramainya. Perasaan sangka baik masih kuat - mungkin ada bacaan Tahlil beramai-ramai kot sempena Valentine's Day. Wah! Brothers & sisters beramai pulak tu. Wah! Sungguh indah ukhuwwah... Tentu mendapat barakah!



Yeah, right! You're bloody right! Ukhuwwah kebendenye. Masing-masing menghayati keindahan tanpa disedari mereka dihujani dengan dosa. Semakin tua waktu malam, zikir-zikir neraka (ayat jiwang) semakin rancak. I love you, you love I. Awak sayang saya tak? Cinta kita tetap teguh honey. Apa hadiah utk Valentine's Day? I sanggup menempuh lautan api (baca: lautan api neraka) demi you. Dan banyak lagi zikir-zikir yang lain...



Itu lah dia. Valentine's Day ini pembunuh kasih ibu. Penyelar kasih bapa. Yang utama, menyembelih kasih Ilahi...



Minta kita semua dijauhkan dari membuat benda-benda yang tak berfaedah ini.



Wallahu'alam.